I've Been Bamboozled!

That was the good-natured comment by Richard Hatch when he got voted off Survivor two weeks ago. Well, I'm trying, as hard as it is, to have as good-natured an emotional reaction as I can to events from earlier this evening. You see...

I had a vision of the future pulled right out from under me. It's regarding the resolution of an important part of my life. I had it all in my mind how it was going to go. It was the focus of my thoughts, and I was going to work to make it come true. It was going to be a relatively painless path, and far better than the alternatives.

Well, that vision cannot come true anymore. I found out this evening that I was lied to and taken advantage of during the past month. In some ways I feel like a fool, but only on the surface. At a deeper level I feel sorry for the person that derailed my vision, for they are the one that is living in their self-created reality of negativity. It's only been a few hours, and already my initial feeling of betrayal and anger is giving way to sympathy. The energy that must have been required to sustain such a deception must have been stressful and tiring, fueling even more negativity. That can't be healthy for the soul.

May that soul find peace, somewhere, somehow, in the days and months ahead.

Posted: Tue - March 9, 2004 at 09:54 PM